Your first breakup is always the hardest: It rewires your brain. It breaks your heart in ways you didn’t know were possible. You retrace every step that led to the breakup, wondering if you made the right choices. You are filled with every emotion humanly possible, and you try your best to handle them. In my case, I was confused about everything that led to my relationship ending. I was angry that I let a cruel boy break my heart, and I was sad because I missed that cruel boy. I hated everything about the situation I found myself in, so I tried everything to get over my feelings.